I Confessed My Love to Him of Four Years. We’re Still Friends Now
Despite all the boys I’ve loved before, I’m glad I didn’t scare him away.
It is May 18, 2021. As part of my goodbye list, I meet up with my good ol’ friend Jason. We finally have a chance to meet up in person, closer than six feet, which is a blessing if you ask me. He looks more or less the same: his facial hair is a little more grown out and is the same quirky, but very lovable character. We talk until the restaurant closes. As we head to our cars, we have a brief moment of silence. Our lives are changing very soon and quicker than either of us expected. I am incredibly happy for him. He is incredibly happy for me. We both say how much we’re going to miss each other. We come in for a quick embrace (this was a lot of hard work to improve over the years), and that ends another chapter of a very long narrative for the two of us.
Six years and one month ago during High School Graduation, I confessed to Jason that I had a crush on him for all of high school.
Jason hit a lot of marks on 14-year-old Asia. To me, he had the charm, the looks, and the brains. I know it was not just me who had a crush on Jason during High School. He was quite popular among the girls in our class. Teachers adored him. Unbeknownst to Jason, he did not know how much of an all-star he was.
I have this thing that I tend to tell people that I like that I either use to or currently do have a crush on them. For Jason, I kept my secret until I knew I was over him.
In those four years:
- We went to Australia together.
- Hung out inside and outside of school
- He became integral in our core group
- Went to Prom together (not my date but close enough)
So when I left it out all on the table on our football field, I was expecting the worst. I remember he said thank you. He said that he didn’t feel the same way about me, but he regarded me highly as his friend. He hoped that we could still be friends, and of course, I said I would love that.
And so we still were.
Based on his personality, I thought that I would not come back from this. But in the next five years we:
- Regularly keep in touch (even in a pandemic)
- Go to Dodger Games and adventures with our other friend
- Have movie meetups
- Attended the same University (I transferred)
- Graduated University together
- Give each other dating advice!
I’m blessed that I have him as such a close friend and how he sees me as one too. He is remarkable. In the eight years that I’ve known him, my admiration for him grows.
I cannot tell you why he chose to stay. Perhaps he saw the value in our friendship despite my confession. I will never know. Well, I tried to nudge him once, but he didn’t bite. I am just excited for our story to continue. ❤
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So Jason, if you read this, I- still don’t forgive you for bamboozling me about your sister’s wedding! I was seriously excited!
I cannot tell you why he chose to stay. Perhaps he saw the value in our friendship despite my confession. I will never know. Well, I tried to nudge him once, but he didn’t bite. I am just excited for our story to continue. ❤
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So Jason, if you read this, I- still don’t forgive you for bamboozling me about your sister's wedding! I was seriously excited!
